How sin can ruined life

From my very own experience, i get the taste of doing sin and the result instantly.
There is no way of get out of here. You must have to face that predator and it will stepped you until you can't breath.
Once i get myself in such ground where i was out of my mind. Doing wrong things again and again. It's happened from my mental issue which build from continuous fighting against insecurity.
My family broke when i am student of University 1st Year. My parents separated and simply through me to street. I was habituated with luxurious life, as my family was wealthy and i never prepared myself for the hard ground to fight. When i kicked out to the real world, i saw, i know nothing, and physically not that fit to do labor.
Nobody would imagine how that would be curse for a man. I was starting my life passing like a dog. Sometime i couldn't get eat for many days. No residence of living. I was about to mad. I had nobody who can feel sympathy for me. Everyone start cruel attempt on me. I was so confused and helpless. Get too low money to maintain self, even can't manage a shelter for me. i couldn't apply to the official job as i had no address. Due to unwise and amateur, i got many untrue blamed by people who imposed there sin on me.
Then, i took the most destructive way, simply trying to destroying self. I started doing wrong things that i hate myself and want to kill myself. But i couldn't.
But the consequences running after me like wolf, i can't sleep, can't eat, as when i get the taste of life and feel that i need to alive,
but people not giving me the chances.
It's nightmare to me,
i can't live with it and can't die.






Do any one have answers?